Saying Hello To My Sadness
Sadness is a word that is often used to express grief. Today, I want you to give a voice to your sadness.
First, sit quietly and go into your body. Give yourself a few minutes to become aware of the sadness that is living inside you. You will almost embody the sadness, which will give you an opportunity to express it more openly. Once you have tapped into the sadness, I want you to write about it in your journal.
This exercise is to feel and express the sadness of losing your mother. You may write it down in point form or you may write it like a story. It doesn’t matter how you express it, as long as you become aware of the sadness.
Don’t judge the sadness, it doesn’t deserve to be judged, it deserves to be felt and expressed. Your sadness really needs to be witnessed and voiced, nurtured and loved. Be kind to yourself and your sadness.
The next day’s exercise (day 9) will allow you to explore some of your unresolved sadness.
Example: Sadness is probably my primary emotion. I feel sad energy living inside me every day. The sadness is overwhelming and mostly living in my chest area. When the sadness expresses itself fully, my chest feels like it is closing in on me and I can barely breathe. I feel like I am suffocating. I recognise the sadness when it shows up in my life. I close my eyes and breathe through it gently.
I am sad that mum died and that she had to suffer so much. I am sad that I don’t have her in my life anymore. I can’t just pick up the phone and call her. I can’t take the long three and a half hour trip in the car to visit her. I am so sad that I will never hear her voice again. I will never get her advice. I will never receive a birthday card or phone call from my beautiful mother ever again. My entire life feels sad. I feel empty and lost. I feel like I am swimming in sadness most days and often all I want to do is give up and just drown, but I put one foot in front of the other and somehow survive each day without her.
I feel completely broken and don’t know how to live in the world without her. The emptiness feels sad too. It all feels sad. I am sad. I feel like the rest of my life will have a level of sadness that will never go away. I just need to learn to live with the sadness.
“The gift of silence enables me to hear the sadness in my heart”